Does a vocation exist without desire?

When I saw the equestrian circus for the first time as a child, I felt the same emotion that I think a child who wants to become a priest can feel in the moment of soul elevation. I saw a kind of annunciation. The clowns seemed to me, the first time that I saw them, the ambassadors of a life I could not refuse. When they came to meet me with their sneers, with their masks, with that fracasone noisy and scary.

it seemed to me that they were referring unequivocally to something that was waiting for me. It was like Saint Paul in Damascus; I at the equestrian circus had the revelation of my life, of my work. How it was then."

Image by Carlotta Mismetti Capua, from Amarcord.